continuing previous post...

So, now I finally understand that there is so much brain activity that is going on when I see a stimulating "reward" as it is called. Eating that high fat/sugar food makes me feel better when I am eating it, but, immediately afterward I have remorse and eating it only strengthens the reward part of my brain so next time I see it my brain will urge me to have the reward again. If you find your behavior different from your goals and desires, this book might be for you. It has empowered me to realize the cause of my struggles and as the LDS Addiction Recovery Manual says, "the pain of the problem becomes greater than the pain of the solution." I am perfectly happy giving up the foods that make me feel like I'm going crazy because my actions are not in line with my desires. I've been eating consistently clean (God made, non-processed foods) for several weeks now and I haven't felt better. My emotions and attitude are in check and I don't even want the extra thick milkshake because I know it's going to send me into a spiral that will be much harder to overcome.

I just thought I'd send a holler out so if you've been having ups & downs like me you can know where to find knowledge and empowerment. I love you! Keep working! It's worth it!!